I cannot tell you how grumpy I am right now, other than to point out that it’s after 2 a.m. and I’m not in bed asleep.

I’m grumpy because I have allergies which show up every year at this time, stuffing up my head like a wet rag in a blender.

I’m grumpy because it’s been a rainy, icky day.

I’m grumpy because I spent 4 hours at a double-overtime game blown by my team yesterday.

I’m grumpy because I can never keep up with email.

I’m rather grumpy because apparently it’s not OK to be grumpy when you write and to express raw human emotion, otherwise you will offend someone else’s sensibilities.

I’m grumpy because I see family members struggling with studies of one type or another and I can’t just jump in and fix it for them. In fact, it would only screw things up if I tried.

I’m grumpy because it’s an election year and trying to not write about politics is a royal pain, and the thought of an idiot like Obambi screwing up the judiciary and putting his blame-America-first policies into place is depressing.

I’m grumpy that because I mentioned something political, Evan will now monopolize the comment thread with DailyKos moonbat gasbaggery, Rick will re-declare political agnosticism, and PB will come give all of the wrong reasons (or the wrong arguments about the right reasons) in agreement with my position.

I’m grumpy because some folks I know (including myself) just can’t seem to get along, instead baiting and acting like defensive, childish brats out of some warped sense of ‘honor’…

And I’m grumpy because It’s impossible for me to just pour out feelings on a page without feeling the gnawing need to bring it around to something positive or good, when that is not how I’m feeling.

Like this.

After all, I should really be thankful.

If the only health I’m struggling with is my weight and a yearly allergy, I should be thankful I can walk around and enjoy most things in life and that my health is much better than what a lot of people are experiencing.

Why should I complain about the rain when so many people had their homes washed away yesterday in Texas and Louisinana?

Instead of complaining about the game yesterday, I should be thankful I have been blessed with the income to allow me to purchase season tickets in the first place, and that I got to spend the day explaining the rules of football to my girls (who may not have cared all that much, except that they were with their dad having fun.)

I should be thankful I have email, though I should learn to pick up the phone or be physically present even if an email would be easier.

I should just be encouraging and supportive of people with burdens, walking alongside them – even if I cannot ease the burdens myself.

I should be thankful to live in a country which peacefully turns over its leadership every 4-8 years, and guarantees my right to religious freedom, and the other freedoms I have been blessed with.

I should be thankful for people who disagree with me on political issues, because they were made in God’s image just as much as I have been.

I should be thankful for people who agree with me, even if they do so in embarrassing ways, because they, too, are in God’s image.

I should be thankful for being able to converse with friends and acquaintances about matters of much (and little) import.

I should desire a role of peacekeeper then there is disagreement, rather than just wishing the disagreement would go away.

I should always desire to do good and to teach well in any situation.

But I don’t.

I’m pretty sure I’m whining right now, but for the life of me I don’t know how to stop. I seriously wonder if I should just delete this and let the facade of perfection slip – the same facade that probably fools nobody but myself.

But I won’t.

Why?

Because the most frustrating thing about this particular medium is that it is so sterile, and it allows us to put forth only the better parts of ourselves, if we so choose, making us appear either self-righteous or utterly boorish or so much more than what we are really like inside. Instead, it is probably better that we are able to see each other more authentically, for how else can we love, care about and life up each other if we never know what we struggle with?

Not only do I suffer from seasonal allergies, but I also deal with seasonal depression, as well. I suspect I’ve built up a pretty good front for folks that know me in real life, because I frequently hear comments about how positive and upbeat I am, and how I am an encouraging person – and that’s not what I feel I am like, even though I wish it was true.

You have my apologies for dragging you, my friends, with me through this mental muck.

I really have no defense other than to say that it’s 2:30 a.m., I’m unable to get to sleep, and…

I’m really grumpy right now…

UPDATE: And I’m a little more grumpy now that I realize I published this in the wrong blog…

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1   Joe C    
September 15th, 2008 at 5:50 am

I know how you feel.

2   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 6:51 am

As a Notre Dame fan, I suspect the Purdue loss exacerbated the entire condition – I’ve been there. One consolation, you guys have a great quarterback. Aside from being the writing genre I am not partial to (I feel this – I feel that), I could not help but laugh at this marvelous quip:

“moonbat gasbaggery”

PS – Don’t tell anyone but Purdue scares me this year, they usually do because they end up with a good quarterback.

PS PS – Watch the Left Behind series, it will cheer you up!! :) :)

3   Nick    http://www.ruminatingrants.wordpress.com
September 15th, 2008 at 7:17 am

Did you delete the post about Ingrid?

4   Chris L    http://www.fishingtheabyss.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 8:26 am

Thanks, guys…

5   Chris L    http://www.fishingtheabyss.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 8:39 am

Did you delete the post about Ingrid?

It is possible I did it accidentally when I deleted my double-post of this article last night…

If so, my apololgies. If not, I’ll have an explanation if someone else says they did it…

6   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 8:52 am

OK Chris, when I get in bondage to some literary brilliance (other than my own rare instances :) ) I vacillate between envy and admiration. So this thing is rattling around in my head and now I suggest you add “moonbat gasbaggery” as one of your categories. There are many places on the internet that can substantiate such a label!

I guess we can come up with a shortened nickname as well.

Moonbag
Bat bag
Moongas (my preference!)

7   Jeff, Sterling Heights MI    
September 15th, 2008 at 9:14 am

My basement flooded, does that make you feel any better.

“PS PS – Watch the Left Behind series, it will cheer you up!! :)
I think that would make my stomach upset with how poorly people read their Bible. ;-)

8   Christian P    http://www.churchvoices.com
September 15th, 2008 at 9:15 am

Chris L,

I think this post is actually very fitting for CRN.info at this time. So I’m glad it accidentally got posted here.

9   pastorboy    http://crninfo.wordpress.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 9:24 am

Yes, no, Yes, no

I was tracking with this wonderful post until you mentioned PB and had to slam him, whoever he is.

:)

Really. Sad. Sad. Really.

10   Nathanael    http://www.borrowedbreath.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 10:02 am

And I’m a little more grumpy now that I realize I published this in the wrong blog…

No you didn’t…I needed to read this and don’t regularly go to your personal blog.

Thanks, brother.
Shalom

11   pastorboy    http://crninfo.wordpress.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 10:05 am

Chris,

When your team is USC, you rarely have grumpy days!

When your team is Notre Dame, you will have this day when Purdue comes to town this year!

12   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 10:20 am

the thought of an idiot like Obambi screwing up the judiciary and putting his blame-America-first policies into place is depressing.

Woo! Go ignorant and childish attacks!

I’m grumpy that because I mentioned something political, Evan will now monopolize the comment thread…

In other words, you are grumpy because you made an ignorant comment that makes you look very much like Ken Silva, and you don’t want to be called on it.

13   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 10:36 am

In other words, you are grumpy because you made an ignorant comment that makes you look very much like Ken Silva, and you don’t want to be called on it.

Uh oh, Chris. Now you’ve gone and insulted the Chosen One. The wrath of the Left is now upon you.

I always find it interesting because to someone like Ken Silva, Chris L. is obviously a liberal because he defends Rob Bell, but to Obama supporters, he’s a right-wing nutter.

14   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 10:41 am

but to Obama supporters, he’s a right-wing nutter.

Well… when you make comments like the one above, you lend yourself pretty well to being called a “right-wing nutter.”

But Phil said that, I sure didn’t.

15   Keith    http://fivepts.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 10:58 am

Chris L: I feel your pain brother! Appreciate the honesty.

BTW, I woke up this morning and drew a breath…it’s all good from there.

16   Keith    http://fivepts.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 10:59 am

I ain’t votin’ for Obama either; that really ticks some people off. Don’t care. I’d vote for the insurance selling lizard on TV if he was the only other one running.

17   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:08 am

I’d vote for the insurance selling lizard on TV if he was the only other one running.

I don’t know, that lizard seems pretty bright. He probably has more real world experience than Obama.

18   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:19 am

You guys are in such bondage. Come on over and Take a Walk on the Wild Side!

It isn’t that McCain or Obama are worse than the other, the system is based on the works of Cain’s hands. It is the love of money in action. Who will put more money in my pocket is who I will vote for. It just so happens that everyone makes themselves believe that the one whose moral views they like is also the one with the right economic plan.

The truth shall set you free…….. :lol:

19   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:24 am

It just so happens that everyone makes themselves believe that the one whose moral views they like is also the one with the right economic plan.

Economics and morals are two separate things?

20   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:25 am

Rick,
I pretty much am on your side. I just enjoy messing with Obama supporters because of the messianic expectations that have been placed on him just baffle me so. I just have a hard time understanding his appeal.

21   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:29 am

“Economics and morals are two separate things?”

You’re kidding, right? Good joke, I love levity! :lol:

22   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:29 am

I would also add that I find it interesting that the Christians who supposedly have such a high view of God’s sovereignty and believe that the future is entirely planned get themselves worked up into such a tizzy about getting the right man into office. If the outcome is already set into place, than their efforts truly are futile.

23   Chris L    http://www.fishingtheabyss.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:35 am

Dave,

I can actually write (and debate) in great depth about politics, but I’ve come to find that 90% of people have firmly-chosen sides and just ignore anything that doesn’t fit.

The “Obambi” comment was just part of the rant I was on, not meant to be insightful analysis. Do I find the whole “messianic” thing creepy? Sure. Do I think he’s got what it takes to actually lead the country? Not at all. Do I think that McCain is God’s gift to America? No – he’s ticked me off many times in his political history. But, to Keith’s point, for months he’s been one step above the “insurance selling lizard”, which is all that matters for my one vote, and his addition of Palin will allow me the opportunity to vote without holding my nose…

24   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:36 am

If the outcome is already set into place, than their efforts truly are futile.

If this is true, why do we do anything?

If the outcome is already set, what is the point of any efforts that we do?

25   Chris L    http://www.fishingtheabyss.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:37 am

If this is true, why do we do anything?

Welcome to the first sentence in my stump speech on “Why I’m not a Calvinist…”

26   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:38 am

If this is true, why do we do anything?

If the outcome is already set, what is the point of any efforts that we do?

I don’t believe the outcome is set, but many in the Reformed camp profess to. I was just pointing out that most who claim to believe this don’t really match that belief with their actions.

27   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:38 am

I can actually write (and debate) in great depth about politics, but I’ve come to find that 90% of people have firmly-chosen sides and just ignore anything that doesn’t fit.

It sounds like you are one of those. Of course, I am too, and I don’t deny that.

Do I find the whole “messianic” thing creepy?

Who actually thinks that Obama is the “messiah?” Or anything close to it?

Do I think he’s got what it takes to actually lead the country

Yet the Sarah Palin selection excites you? Interesting.

28   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:40 am

I don’t believe the outcome is set, but many in the Reformed camp profess to.

Ah… sorry. I thought you were saying it, not that others were saying it.

29   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:40 am

“Welcome to the first sentence in my stump speech on “Why I’m not a Calvinist…””

Can I be your speech writer? :)

30   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:42 am

Who actually thinks that Obama is the “messiah?” Or anything close to it?

I don’t know, when Obama spoke at PSU, there were people trying to push as close to him as they could. People were literally in tears. It was very odd.

If it’s not messianic, it’s at least Svengali-like.

31   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:46 am

Phil… people have been the exact same way about Sarah Palin since she was announced as the VP.

He is a celebrity. She is a celebrity. And with Obama, he is a celebrity that inspires people. And unlike John McCain, I don’t find that to be a disqualifier for office.

I have no idea how people getting excited about a candidate is a bad thing.

32   Julie    http://www.loneprairie.net
September 15th, 2008 at 11:49 am

Chris L., I apologize. I know I contributed to the problem and not the solution.

Sorry.

33   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:51 am

Obama is a social and spiritual liberal who is probably well meaning. (intellectually qualified, experiencially lacking)

McCain is a war hero who is qualified to be president. (intellectually and experiencially qualified)

Biden is a professional politician who seems good natured. (intellectually and experiencially qualified)

Palin seems good natured and compitent. (intellectually qualified and experientially lacking)

Rick Frueh (over qualified in all areas) :cool:

34   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:54 am

I have no idea how people getting excited about a candidate is a bad thing.

Getting excited is one thing; being in tears and acting like a person has some sort of magical powers is another. Here’s a quote that was in the Daily Collegian from someone at that event I referenced.

Krishna Esteva, a senior at State College Area High School, said he shook hands with Obama.

“It’s almost a religious experience,” he said. “We knew it was going to be big, but I was just looking out on this sea of faces that extended into the distance.”

I saw many more like them at the time, but I don’t want to take the time to look them up. It’s just odd. I don’t like the worship people in any form.

I remember being at some Christian concerts back in the day and the way people treated the performers was sickening to me. I mean if Christians hold people up as such idols, it seems we’re really missing the boat.

35   dave    http://www.mindfulmission.com
September 15th, 2008 at 11:55 am

McCain is a war hero who is qualified to be president.

What does being a war hero have to do with being a President?

36   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:56 am

“I have no idea how people getting excited about a candidate is a bad thing.”

The excitement just reveals an ignorance of history or an enviably niave view of the future.

37   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 11:57 am

I did not say he was qualified BECAUSE he was a war hero. He just is one – a great one at that.

38   Scotty    http://scottysplace-scotty.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 12:03 pm

UPDATE: And I’m a little more grumpy now that I realize I published this in the wrong blog…

Well…..there ya go. It shows to go ya that this post was predestined to be put on this site. Hence, proving the theory of God choosing of the elect, edifying the Calvinist line of theology!! ;)

39   Keith    http://fivepts.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 12:22 pm

If the outcome is already set into place, than [sic] their efforts truly are futile.

I know. Aint’ it great?!

- I’m voting AGAINST Obama because I can.
- I know that regardless of the outcome, God is STILL on the throne.
- I’m a Calvinist BECAUSE “the outcome is already set.” ( I think God’s got a better handle on things than I do; I “do” things, i.e. pray, witness, etc, because God commands me to. Not my place to question why or figure out how it all works down to the smallest detail. “My ways are not your ways…”) I find WAY more comfort in knowing that the final outcome doesn’t depend on me. I can’t screw it up if God’s in control.

40   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 15th, 2008 at 12:28 pm

I think God has to fix a lot of your screw ups Keith! :lol:

41   Keith    http://fivepts.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 12:32 pm

Stop it, Rick. You’re making me blush.

42   Joe    http://joemartino.name
September 15th, 2008 at 12:45 pm

I’m voting for McCain because Brian McLaren didn’t stay out of it and tried to influence me. :)
Of course, voting is a private matter and you have no idea who I’ll be voting for. :)

43   Keith    http://fivepts.blogspot.com
September 15th, 2008 at 2:20 pm

I’m writing in Rick Frueh (Pres) and Pat Paulsen (VP). A winning ticket in my book!

44   Break The Terror    http://breaktheterror.wordpress.com
September 17th, 2008 at 12:57 am

God, what a whiner.

I don’t even come here anymore except when somebody links me to a specific post, due to the utter boring-ness of most of the people here spending hours of their day debating something so senseless as theology.

45   Break The Terror    http://breaktheterror.wordpress.com
September 17th, 2008 at 1:00 am

But I’m glad to know that hearing political viewpoints different from your own cause you such grief and whiny pain.

Laughable in the extreme.

46   Break The Terror    http://breaktheterror.wordpress.com
September 17th, 2008 at 1:16 am

One more thing:

It’s obvious that you didn’t “publish this in the wrong blog” since you mentioned my name and I have never been to your personal blog before.

So…

Owned, Drunkie McBloggerton.

It’s okay, I’ve done it.

47   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 17th, 2008 at 6:29 am

There is only one thing that trumps a whiner – someone who whines about a whiner. Evan, your occasional visit to the proletariat indicates a profound sense of boredom as well as a charitable condescention from the upper room of the blog bourgeoisie.

We are honored by your crumbs… :cool:

48   Chris L    http://www.fishingtheabyss.com/
September 17th, 2008 at 11:01 am

Evan,

If you notice my normal posting patterns (which I’m assuming you don’t), I typically post articles on my personal blog in the evening and then link-and-comment or cross-post the following day.

My intent was to post this on my personal site and then (when I was in a better mood – hopefully) the following day link and excerpt the article for better deconstruction.

49   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 17th, 2008 at 11:04 am

More whining from Chris, does it ever end? :lol:

50   Break The Terror    http://breaktheterror.wordpress.com
September 17th, 2008 at 11:44 am

Whatever, Chris.

It wouldn’t have been relevant to name-check me on your blog. That would have come, presumably, in the next-day “linking” and “excerpting” you mentioned.

So…not buying it? Not buying it.

I really don’t care — It says more about you than it does about me.

51   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 17th, 2008 at 11:55 am

Oh, Evan, is your skin really so thin? You regularly trash people on your blog, so it seems you have little room to play the victim here.

I don’t see what’s so hard to believe about Chris’ claim. The fact that you’ve never commented on that blog realy is meaningless. You’re still in Chris’ sphere, and you had recently commented here, so it was relevant to him that day.

Anyway, Chris didn’t really call you a name anyway. He said that you monopolize threads with “DailyKos moonbat gasbaggery”. And you do tend to post links and quotes from many leftist sites.

52   Break The Terror    http://breaktheterror.wordpress.com
September 17th, 2008 at 12:06 pm

Haha, this isn’t about thin skin.

This place is supposed to be the “Christian” blog…er…right?

It’s hard to tell.

See, my blog is a snarky place. I make no claims about it being a welcoming place. In fact, my commenting policy actually says that if I think something you say is stupid enough, I’m going to make it into a whole post for everyone to laugh at.

But also? My blog is a political blog. The people I trash are public figures, and they usually deserve it.

But it’s a bit disconcerting to click over onto a “Christian” blog and see people bitching and moaning about commenters in their posts, especially on a blog such as this, which partially came about to counter that sort of behavior on so-called “ODM” blogs.

So. That’s all.

The veil was lifted for me long ago on the idea that I should expect anything different from the Evangelical “Christian” world.

What I find hilarious is that comments that I made on the internet could go so far as to be a component in making someone so goshdern GRUMPY! I mean, dude, when that’s happening, it’s time to reintroduce ourselves to the three-dimensional people…

53   Phil Miller    http://pmwords.blogspot.com
September 17th, 2008 at 1:11 pm

This place is supposed to be the “Christian” blog…er…right?

Well, yes, we’re all Christians (all meaning the writers here), but I think we value transparency more than just doing something because it what Christians are expected to do. I mean if you expect us to all be Ned Flanders, well you’ve got the wrong blog.

I just think it’s interesting that you seem comfortable with the double-standard that you’ve created for yourself. As I stated earlier, you’ve said some pretty nasty stuff on your blog, and I’ll also note you have said some mean-spirited things to some of the commenters here.

The fact that this you are getting so upset about this one thing is a bit puzzling.

54   Rick Frueh    http://judahslion.blogspot.com/
September 17th, 2008 at 1:16 pm

Evan – your profundity is astounding as you state the obvious – imperfection is universal. Keep observing, it will surely add to proving your case which can be proven by every post and every comment thread on every blog.

There, guilty as charged. :lol:

55   merry    
September 17th, 2008 at 2:13 pm

“God, what a whiner.

I don’t even come here anymore except when somebody links me to a specific post, due to the utter boring-ness of most of the people here spending hours of their day debating something so senseless as theology.”

Evan, I’m just curious, but why did you come here in the first place? I’m trying to be as polite as possible here, but from the beginning you seem to have had this attitude that maybe you view yourself as . . . slightly better than those of us who chose to spend our time discussing theology. I realize that politics is a passion of yours, but if you can’t discuss your views on a Christian blog without insulting those who want to discuss Christian beliefs, than perhaps you should take your passion elsewhere. Especially if you think we’re all so boring. This blog has a purpose, and the purpose is not American politics. Really, I’m not sure what you’re so upset about. Chris’s comment really was not insulting in any way.

Really, I hope all the best for you. We’re adults, let’s try to handle things maturely.

56   merry    
September 17th, 2008 at 2:15 pm

Oh, and Evan, Chris also said later in the post:

“I should be thankful for people who disagree with me on political issues, because they were made in God’s image just as much as I have been.”

See, he wasn’t knocking you personally at all, nor does anyone have hard feelings toward you! ;)

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